dolled up and headed downtown, it’s been a while since I’ve ventured away from
the comforts of my hood as it is fondly referred too.
with the idea of trying something new but finally found the courage to do it.
It wasn’t great I stood by the dance floor clutching my Coors light and swaying to the music…I felt awkward but I’m proud that I fought my fears and went.
After about an hour I headed back to familiar territory and ended the
night at my local hangout.
of the morning as I grabbed a Vachon Ah Caramel! for energy an acquaintance
offered to walk me home. It was interesting that he was such a perfect
gentleman since he is usually a bit of a cock-a-doodle bragging about his
prowess to anyone within earshot.
headed out again, I have to say it’s nice to finally have the freedom to do what I want
especially since my teens were spent looking after my parents, my twenties
looking after my daughter and early thirties dealing with marriage, divorce and immigration.
local bar and hung out with some friends. There was a new guy in
his early thirties, Jamaican and good looking. At the end of the night
four of us including the new guy ended up at a Portuguese bakery till the wee
hours of the morning.
with the new guy and my friend Mike and Mr. Newbie who seemingly behaved like a gentleman walked me to the door.
He wasted no time and propositioned me by saying “I would love to @#$%.” I’m
censoring this since the context is not important I’m sure you get the gist.
answered? I am so impressed with myself especially since I am the girl looking
for love, sometimes probably coming off needy. The reality is the
complete opposite: I have gained confidence along the way that I didn’t know I
32 year old hunk was – stand in line. He left apologizing and I assured
him that it was fine and I walked in the house saying Wow!!! shocked by his
boldness and absolutely amazed by my zinger.
out again and hung around with friends and all around it was a positive reinforced weekend of
doing things and saying things I would not have before.
up with self-doubt and felt tormented with obstacles has transformed into the woman coming into her own who has finally reached the crescendo of confidence and I have to say it feels damn