Happy New Year everyone, I am so grateful that after three years of writing Gail’s Forum you are still interested in reading what I am scribbling. The journey I originally started but so enjoyable with your companionship on the path of discovery.
I’ve written about everything under the sun both current and past and the cleansing of my soul is clear. I feel lighter in spirit and although 2013 in hindsight was a year of reflection, 2014 will be nothing short of total transformation.
Here is what I can tell you about 2013: I found myself….I didn’t find love but yet I did, I am able to spend time alone and I feel great about it.
My whole world did and does not revolve around men like I was told repeatedly by my mother years ago and I am not her allegedly oversexed sister Honorine. I am also extremely comfortable with my own thoughts and opinions and I have completely given up the need for approval from others.
My rebellion has died down and I feel confident that I am more than my weight and the perceptions of others. My spirit is positive and poised to break down any wall that stands in my way.
I spent the Christmas holiday purging and de-cluttering my house and my soul.
Here is the observation I now have of myself: I am good and bad, at times happy and sometimes sad, I laugh until I cry and I tend to get mad quickly when I’m put on the spot, I am kind-hearted yet I can seem cold and conniving. I am a bit of a stickler about right and wrong, I only give the people in my life that matter a second chance, I am unique and my experiences brought me to the point where I have a clear vision of the future, I am always ahead of the game and I conquer the elusive question: What is my purpose? It is to forge ahead and change the fabric of life around me.
My journey started many years ago, the missing piece of the puzzle was to restore my faith in humanity. I have one person to thank for that, my best friend Ovid. We met over 15 years ago and he has never let me down. He has been there through the good, the bad and the ugly. He replaced the absentee brothers in my life, the father that chose to care more about others and himself than his kids. He replaced the husband that took my love for granted.
Ovid was there when I sick, he was there for the good family moments and he was there when I lost loved ones. He is the one person in my life that has constantly been there.
In September he was hit by a car, I am trying to raise a bit of funds to help him and his girlfriend Cathy. Ovid is originally from Jamaica and supports his mom and two daughters back home. This is a man who never asks for help but yet when I have said, “Ovid I have a friend or a family member who needs help” he never hesitates. When my gambling addiction took it’s toll, Ovid was always there to bail me out. Many times he helped me even when it took away from his family.
Now as he waits for the paperwork to settle from the accident (4 months with no pay) he is struggling and yet still does not ask for help. As his best friend and a forever grateful human being for his kindness and friendship I am asking for him.
I set up a fund, I know there are many worthy causes out there and I can appreciate that everyone is feeling the burden after the holidays. I simply ask if you are blessed like me to have such a kind and absolutely amazing person in your life to please help. His friends and family have helped already including me but after four months everything is backed up.
Here is the link to donate: http://www.plumfund.com/pf/Ovidsfund
As we start 2014 I can promise you it won’t be boring at Gail’s Forum, I will continue to write and I hope you continue to follow my journey. Prince Charming looks a bit different now and I am not looking for him. The search this year will be for balance, routine, new adventures, facing fears and meeting new people.
I want to leave you with a thought and my resolution for 2014
My resolution is to bring my lunch to work everyday – it will bring discipline, savings and structure to my life. It is simple yet it is the task that will get the ball rolling with other changes.
Here is the thought I want to leave you with.
No matter what obstacle comes your way, you have the power to overcome it. If you see a wall, climb it or go around it or break it down but don’t ever let it stop you from going where you want to go. You have the power to choose your destiny so don’t limit yourself. Face your fears and enjoy each day that you are blessed to be here. Most importantly, restore your faith in humanity. Don’t let the negativity surrounding you get the better hand, be the positive light in the world.