I’m so excited about life right now! I feel energized and ready to conquer the world :))
First off I want to start with an exciting update:
So Below is the Health/Emotional/Financial Status I shared with you in http://gailsforum.com/2014/12/31/enough-is-enough-is-enough/ 12 Days ago with an update as of today
|Jan 1 – 2015||Jan 12- 2015|
|Health Status||Health Status|
|weight 228.5||weight 223.0|
|exercise (none)||exercise (stretch/dance every day) (walking on the weekend)|
|stamina low||stamina moderate|
|libido is powered off||libido powered back on|
|Emotional Status||Emotional Status|
|many issues resolved||figuring out my lovemap and how to fix it, working on finding interests, spending quality time with family.|
|figuring out how to quit smoking||figuring out how to quit smoking|
|letting go and letting God||letting go and letting God|
|still hoping to find love again someday||still hoping to find love again someday|
|strengthening my resistance||strengthening my resistance|
|Financial Status||Financial Status|
|too many credit cards||too many credit cards|
|living pay-check to pay-check||Following a budget, focused on savings.|
|guilt spending||keeping myself in check, putting stuff back when I’ve gone over budget.|
|guilt giving||working at not guilt giving but rather helping in other ways.|
As you can see some progress is being made and those are the small steps, 5 lbs lost in 12 days is a good accomplishment for sure but it isn’t what I am most proud of. I am proud of myself for making a choice to improve my overall health no matter how much or how little weight I lose.
On the health front, I have changed the food I eat and the way I eat, I’m bringing my lunch to work, drinking more water and I’ve given up heavy carbs, beer and sweets. In a future post I will go into more detail about what I eat/drink on a daily basis but for now I will leave it at that.
On the emotional front, I am currently reading “How to keep from pushing men away” by Dina Z. Colada. At some point I have to be honest with myself and really say out loud – I have absolutely no idea how to be in a great relationship or for that matter how to be when I’m not in a relationship.
It is time to fess up on the truth. I sabotage things, I rebel against things and I feel I don’t deserve things. These are the messages/truths that need to change. A good friend of mine recently put it to me in a way that I can understand: I need to be a role model and I can’t be a role model if I’m behaving like a spoiled teenager.
That’s what it is all about right now, finding me, fixing me and representing me.
I’m reading up on Feng Shui -colours/tips and I found out I am the FIRE Element – best colour representation through Red, Magenta, Purple, Green and Brown.
I think this is a good time to look at what I have in my home and focus on the colours that work at bring love, peace and success to all aspects of my life.
On a last note, I am getting wonderful relationship advice from a seemingly unlikely source – my daughter. As they say in life at times you are the teacher and at times you are the student. When I look at friends and family – she is the one who models a healthy relationship in my eyes. She has worked hard along with her partner to grow emotionally.
It is also a lot of fun to see how great she feels about giving me advice for a change. I know in the past ten years I certainly didn’t model the best “personal choices” but let’s face it…I can’t do a damn thing about what I’ve done.
Today I choose to take a Big Leap of Faith and change the things I can.
If anyone is looking at what to buy me for my birthday, I need a superman shirt. Believe or not – I was a huge fan of #BarbraStreisand growing up, in fact I spent many days and nights learning all the songs from her #Superman album. I loved her spirit and sheer disregard for what others thought of her. I always hoped I would be more like her including having a t-shirt like the one she wore on the album. I don’t want the shorts but the socks would be great too :)) Best song was my heart belongs to me… http://youtu.be/4VxyTQnDfDk. Barbra helped me through many difficult times and she was truly an inspiration.