Did you ever hear the saying – Go Big or Go Home? It should be tattooed on me somewhere, I swear. It isn’t possible for me to do things in a small way.
I don’t cope well with stress – I have to be honest I’m incredibly self-sabotaging in every way when it comes to stress in my life, so making a change means giving up a lot hence going big.
Lately while dealing with some personal issues I’ve been you know – going out partying and dating younger men, overspending and overeating, drinking a bit too much, all in an effort to forget about stressful things.
I do strongly believe you have to be honest with yourself and with others to change something in your life as they will tell you in any 12 Step Program – So I’m saying it to myself and the world -I want to change.
I’m not going to do THAT anymore, honestly it takes a toll on the body but even more on the soul. I don’t blame anyone for this except myself. It’s a slippery slope and sometimes you take the crazy carpet down the hill and you just don’t stop until you slam into the snowbank!!
So what am I giving up exactly!!!
- I will no longer date younger men
- I will go out only once or twice a month
- I will follow my food plan to a “T”
- I will drink in total moderation
I’m currently on day 3 of a 30 day cleanse (No Dairy, Refined Carbs or Refined Sugars) and I am walking off the stress 10K at a time.
I’ve had a few conversations with God lately, I’m OK with talking to him once in a while, it usually ends up happening when I’m stuck and I need a push, it really helps especially since most of my family is not talking to me, he seems like the better choice to open up to.
You will never meet everyone else’s expectations, you will fail them in some way or another. Go Big or Go Home, don’t retreat – keep pushing past the hurt and despair and just be the best you, you can be. Sometimes you fall down a lot but you just need to get better knee pads and some amazing people in your life who are there no matter what.
I could hide, lie and pretend I’m someone who has her shit together, I just can’t do that. I need to be true to myself.
Just remember that you can rise up – nothing in life can derail you unless you let it. I get down on myself just like everyone else but then I remember my Dad and that he asked me one day who I was – I wasn’t sure what he meant.
He said you are Gail Young and there is no one else like you in the world, you are unique and special. Damn right I’m special :))
Forgiving yourself is key, don’t worry about the rest of the world, just see today as a new day and make a change.
Listen to this and do what you need to do. Go Big or Go Home….